Evenings of insanity

Every day around 5:30 I start to lose it, Well let me rephrase Landon and I start to lose it. The day is coming to an end and so is my well behaved child. I have been working in the evenings a few days a week and naps seem to be a thing of the past since we are on a new schedule with me leaving in the afternoon. So by 5:30 this is what we look like....



Then at around ten this is what he looks like......

If only this precious, peaceful sleeping child would emerge in the daytime oh how wonderful that would be! Then I wake up.

I would sell my soul to be skinny!

So my wight has been my biggest struggle my whole life. I'm skinny, I'm fat, skinny, fat, skinny, fat. Get pregnant get really FAT! I am not talking 20 pounds overweight i am talking i gained 75 pounds that is like two 5 year old boys. Anyway I have recently been working out with a trainer and dieting (sort of). I have actually seen results, for the first time in my life i think i have hope to look the way i want to look. I have lost 9 pounds in a month and 3% body fat. if i lose 10 more pounds i will be pre- Landon weight. Hurray, hurray, you say but little do you know that this has been this way it is my whole life get skinny then get fat again. So i have decided no more babies until i look like this........

Yes it is true no more bundles of joy until this happens, and it will happen. I think that i would sell my soul to look like this. Even if I have to get surgery in the end it will happen. So I leave you with a picture of me now but check back in May 2009 and you will see hopefully something close to the picture above.

P.S. I know this picture sucks but it is all I have.