Tuesday, October 21, 2008

I would sell my soul to be skinny!

So my wight has been my biggest struggle my whole life. I'm skinny, I'm fat, skinny, fat, skinny, fat. Get pregnant get really FAT! I am not talking 20 pounds overweight i am talking i gained 75 pounds that is like two 5 year old boys. Anyway I have recently been working out with a trainer and dieting (sort of). I have actually seen results, for the first time in my life i think i have hope to look the way i want to look. I have lost 9 pounds in a month and 3% body fat. if i lose 10 more pounds i will be pre- Landon weight. Hurray, hurray, you say but little do you know that this has been this way it is my whole life get skinny then get fat again. So i have decided no more babies until i look like this........
Yes it is true no more bundles of joy until this happens, and it will happen. I think that i would sell my soul to look like this. Even if I have to get surgery in the end it will happen. So I leave you with a picture of me now but check back in May 2009 and you will see hopefully something close to the picture above.


P.S. I know this picture sucks but it is all I have.


8 comments:

april said...

I wish I looked like the dancing with the stars chicks :)
As soon as you get down again -- you'll end up prego -- happened to me. And now thinking about starting all over for hard abs is not fun to think about.
You always look great though - so cute!

Sheila said...

yeah, I feel stupid, even as I read this I'm wolfing down a brownie sundae with mint chocolate chip ice cream, chocolate and caramel sauces on top...thinking, yeah, I want to be skinny too...hmmmmmm somethings wrong here...Good luck with your goal, I know already that I will NEVER look like that lady, but to be honest, I like a little chub! A LITTLE, so I better go trash the rest of this sundae huh??? ;0)

Rylee said...

Lani i think your skinny!!!!! you are way prettier then that lady!! love you too!!

Nicole said...

lookin good Lani! The only picture I have of us is at Mia's 1st bday party and we are sooooo thin. It makes me sick! ahhh the good ol days. Getting excited about the concert.....weeee

Brock and Kristina said...

ah...the endless struggle we all seem to fight. Lani..you are seriously BEAUTIFUL...the hair, your eyes, your smile! I know that no matter what I say to you or myself, we all still care what the scale says, but really...you are so beautiful. A body like jillians would be a good bonus

Megan and Keli'i said...

Lani! You are WAY too hard on yourself! You always look awesome! Seriously! And since you wrote "no more bundles of joy," I hope you didn't jinks yourself and end up a prego!...BUT there are worse things, that's for sure! You are absolutely beautiful and always have been. Love you, girl! But I am cheering for you! GO LANI! And awesome job on this month's progress!

Mandi said...

Oh my sweet Lani...you are so beautiful! You always have been! You have the hottest legs I have ever seen too! That girl makes me mad because I know I will never look like that. But good job on the 9 lbs! I have the same goal to lose 10 lbs before I get pregnant again too!

~Joe, Meli and Tommy said...

Hi Lani,
This is Joe Byram. I read your post and thought I'd suggest something that worked like a charm for Melisa after she had Tommy. She bought a workout on TV called "Turbo Jam" and then "P90X" Both are awesome! Turbo Jam is fun (like dancing mixed with martial arts) and P90X is just a "kick your butt til you cant give any more" work out. If your interested they're totally worth it and I did them with melisa too. It so beats going to the gym. I sound like an infomercial. Anyways. Good luck, we're all in that battle, even us guys.